The First, The Last, and The Never
EXHIBITION PROJECT 2024
In this project, I illustrate using images from my archive, post the death of my father in 2018 in tandem with a video that uses footage from my early childhood as a way to reflect on the grieving process. Losing a family member is universally shocking, but can also become deeply confusing. In my case, my father left behind numerous burnt bridges and shocking truths. I was never going to get closure for many of the things that I learned. For the last several years, I have come to terms with some of it, but in my recent reflections involving my archive, I also see that his death changed the way I perceive my loved ones. I see through my images that my gaze towards them became more about preservation, love, and care. I aim to further draw on that love and warmth in contrast to grief's infamous sadness.